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A Dying Rainbow

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Published: Sep 1, 2012

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A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
Surrounded by fear is where I don't belong
I just want this lucid nightmare to be over and done
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_{Society these days
Teaching children the old prejudice ways
And that's why certain individuals grow up so afraid
In the end, a premature death is the price loved ones pay

I'm one of those
Dwelling in fear at the end of my rope
Trying to conceal agony that no one would ever know
And my grip is slowly getting loose, so I can't wait to let go

It's so hard to try and reach out
No hands to grab, so there's no one to help
Not everyone could understand this kind of hell
Peace is a complete mystery to my pain, and to myself

There is no true hope to oblige
There is no real love to confide
There is no point to this kind of life
There is no such thing as human rights}
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There's a reason why I showed no signs and gave zero warnings
None of you wouldn't have understood this type of suffering
You don't know what it's like to dread discrimination
All I wanted was to be able to live free in the open

But I'm done trying
Because my only dream won't happen
And I'm so sick of waiting
This life is not worth living

I'm leaving this colorless world behind
These old fashioned teachings are what I can no longer abide by
Because I'd rather be dead and gone a thousand times than be a living lie
So now I bid all of you a farewell, and hope you have wonderful life, good bye

What's at the end
Is better than the beginning
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This poem is written for my project - "Broken Wings Unbound: I'm Falling Down, I'm Soaring Now"
In volume Five: Parting Paths
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