The algorithm of the universe is very, very unpredictable. To be told what tomorrow holds for you, is mostly just a lie. A promise is sometimes always an arm's length away.
The word "mystery" is the best to describe tomorrow, and the day after.
Are there plans?
Can you truly perceive the hour ahead?
The judgement of each decision is always swift in reality. I don't know if I make the right decisions when I do. Even if I secretly judge them straight away. I have to live with the decisions I have made.
Career-wise, I can only hope for better days. I had to leave that toxic environment as soon as possible. I had to learn how to defend myself mentally, and socially. If I force myself to thrive in such a poisonous, toxic, venomous environment, I have become what I dread and despise.
The person I become, became, overcame, I never want to be that person on a daily basis ever again.
My words are only ever as sharp as my wit. How can I be kind to others if I can't trust them? I know everyone has two faces. It's just, sometimes I never knew which face I was talking to.
Words have gotten back to me. Words have been said to me. I was being taken for granted.
I worked my fucking ass off day in and day out for three fucking years. To be told I wasn't good enough on a weekly basis was always a slap in the face.
It's not my job to make my boss look good. It's not my job to make my coworkers look good. It's my job to make my department look good. That's all I ever cared for.
People never understand, these are the reasons why I choose the lone wolf path. Two-faced people, lazy people, toxic people, these people are all the reasons that force me to only settle for being a lone wolf. In school, in family, and when it comes to work. I rarely have a decent, humane experience when it comes to working with others. I don't exist to pick up the slack.
If I can do it fine by myself, then good. If not, I'll find a way to make it work. I always do.
I can't depend on anyone, ever. If I do, I get the shit-end of the shit-stick.
Leaders don't exist. People cannot be led.
People are just sheep, living the sheep life.
I take responsibility for my actions. I take responsibility for my words. I will NOT take responsibility for irresponsible people.