I lost my voice
choking on my own tongue.
The words still spill out
from my eyes.
I bit my lips raw
hoping to stem the flow,
but ideas still drip
from my fingertips.
A soggy brain leaks, I suppose
and all my thoughts taste like tar
I tried so hard to pull away
At the end of the night when we kissed
But as you begged me once again to stay
I could taste suicide on your lips
And such an intoxicating fragrance
Far removed from the stench of death
Such a beautiful perfume of life
Of a lost girl hollow from neglect
Am I too late to save her my Lord
Will those lips ever smile again
When razorblade remedies are scarring
Her beautiful porcelain skin
You spoke of your sorrows till midnight
Then you slept in my arms until dawn
Awoke and cried tears until midday
For your past and your present you mourned
And when the last tear finally fell
I explained I'd never lea
My Beautiful Filth:
We'll start with the rose petals
scattered lavishly across the bed
A symbolic collage of my broken thoughts
like memories crushed and thrown into the winds
they lie where they fall, forever forgotten...
Tacks and nails shall line the floor!
A perfect representation of my painful steps
To walk forward was to suffer
to stand still was to endure
Like the insults thrown at me, like the physical abuse
they drive their way into my skin and remain embedded
Unable to be removed except by force
And now comes the masterpiece, the perfect finishing touch
A wall of words and photographs depicting my sorrows and greivance
Look beyond the smile
And behind these eyes of green
Deeply gaze into the abyss
That hides the truth
Dig through the lies and fears
Find the core of my affliction
The center of my soul
Wade past the sins and transgressions
Hiding beneath the still dark water
Dive into the bottomless well of tears
Thats where you'll find all my faults
And..
If you're willing enough
To continue on
Climb that mountain of sorrow and pain
Boulders sharp with anger
Plummeting down its sides
Icy winds of sadness
Trying to force you off
Will you be strong enough?
Determined enough?
For if you make it to the top
Look down upon the other side
To
Whispering to Lucifer:
Humans are such wonderous creatures
even when granted the gift of knowledge
They fall prey to their own insecurities
slaves to their own fears and paranoia
Such is the father's gift of free will...
Yes my lord, I understand
but do you not feel disappointment?
The great bringer of light has condemned himself to an eternity of darkness
simply so his father's children may roam free
Without adversity, there can be no acension...
Ah, such a philosophical statement from you
I am well aware that humans must experience both extremes
Without tasting joy it would be impossible to understand sorrow
Yet I fear that my
When she was alone,
she lost herself.
The same way god lost me.
The putrid ghost,
he murdered her,
and dropped her body in the sea.
I longed and searched for that innocence,
but she was nowhere to be found.
It's almost like my childhood
was pilfered without a sound.
When he dropped her in she struggled,
she fought she cried and screamed.
Alas all good is weak yet lovely.
Alas she is only a long lost dream.
Now they drag my body out of water,
and I feel like I am breathing.
I cut myself on this evil world,
and I cannot halt the bleeding.
It's done with I'm done with I'm sick.
All my faith was washed out at sea.
All alon
Play in feature-length/ Our Creation.
Depict the wavering ceremonial flames.
Yet, the shrinking /candles/ snuffed out
and receded back to film - propaganda.
Prior feast deceiving / inquisitor questing
common citizens as shrapnel-blasted minors.
For the first time /they compel you/
to walk - upon the edged bombshells
that drown out their drones of relentless
misinformation - cavalcading the crying
tombstones. Burials within the white oil -
fields -- damning -- the dressed in tradition.
Tell the tale/ tell of living hell - of the land
which no paladin attempts to purify - rectify.
Name said /locked/ to decay for mere scraps
of
Just a moment...
Before I go
Let me share
A simple prose
It's nothing fancy
Not too flashy
Simply to say
I still care
Days go by
My longing grows
As petals unfurls
The lovely rose
Just a moment
My dearest darling
A simple prose
So you know
I still care