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Undeceased

It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

I could be so more much than this
I do have a purpose, yet I still resist
I yearn to have it all but I don't even wish to exist

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So let the day of the rapture come
But leave me be, the lone soul who is numb

I contain my own apocalypse in my palms
But I will never release it, I will do no one any harm
For I deserve to let it riot inside, even though I've done nothing wrong

My veins send out bolts of corruption
I had no choice but to let it finally happen

My undying resilience is a gift, but it turned out to be so cruel
Because I've faced everything ever known, I'm a walking, breathing shield
Near invincible, I no longer feel any of the hits, so I long since yearn to be killed

I stare up at the cross above me
Wishing I knew what it was like to rest in peace

I could not bear to live this life
I knew I failed at everything before I even tried
I couldn't take it anymore, so I decided to bury myself alive- on the inside
I chose to kill myself on the inside.
I needed to blind myself from this life.
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This poem is written for my project that is titled "Broken Wings Unbound: I'm Falling Down, I'm Soaring Now"
In volume ten: Ultimatums Unleashed
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KalineReine Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Professional Writer
One of the best poems I've ever read in my life. I'm not joking. This is amazing!
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:)
It means a lot whens a person says something like that, so thank you a ton.
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KalineReine Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Professional Writer
You're welcome but I was just being honest. :huggle:
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MissEllaAllanPoe Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
If these words are true to how you feel, I'm sorry and hope that you find consolation from somewhere. It is deeply poetic though.
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It's altered slightly different from how I feel. I refrain from using "him, her, he, she, his, hers" and such, just so anyone could relate to every piece without gender restricted concepts.

But thank you for your kind words. :)
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MissEllaAllanPoe Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I like your reader consideration, no constraints, etc.
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BOI-BLUE Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2012  Student General Artist
"You didn't even want to live your life
You knew you failed at everything before you even tried
You couldn't take it anymore so you chose to bury yourself on the inside"

I know this all too well my friend, if you need anyone I can listen.....
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It's kind of...difficult to talk about anything. I keep the lid tightly close, because once it's loosened, it's very unbearable.
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BOI-BLUE Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2012  Student General Artist
I understand...
Hope all is well in your world....
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SierraPsyche Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is very beautiful.
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, I'm glad that you feel this way about it. :)
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SierraPsyche Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
keep up the awesome work!
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HikariNoMelody Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
I am so strong, I feel none of the pain
I feel nothing at all, am I still sane?
I might have had a purpose once, leading me
but I don't exist at all, I am something no one can see.
I am a ghost that never died
I am the living unsatisfied
I am the dead that never deceased
I am the living that never lived in the least.

I am the undeceased.
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You hit the nail on the nose with that! ^.^
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HikariNoMelody Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2012
yay!!! :icondummydanceplz:
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6faithxsavage9 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
damn. (enough said)
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HikariNoMelody Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
thank you :D
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dw817 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
How did you bend the cross in the final picture ?
That's an interesting effect !
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I reverted it, along with some effects that I don't remember x.x
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dw817 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Well it's hard to recognize from the original, you did a great job !
:winner:
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MetaphoricallySane Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
Absolutely brilliant.
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
So very happy that you enjoyed this.
Thank you a ton!
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LakeSong Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
So let the day of the rapture come
But leave me be, the lone soul who is numb

My favourite part. Makes me think. I loved this. Great work.
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I also love that part, when it came to me I was like...this sounds pretty good! ^.^

Thank you so much, I'm relieved you like it.
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LakeSong Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
It was really good. And I'm usually a pretty harsh critic when it comes to poetry being a poet myself.
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
That means a lot when you say it like that, lol.
Thank you for your kindness. I'm very glad you enjoyed this piece. :)
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LakeSong Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome. I just hope my kindness is returned in the end, lol. Keep up the good work. I'll be watching (in as un-creepy a way as possible xD).
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haakon95 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
sadness is now in my mind, and its okej becouse it was so beautiful!
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Aww my bad :/ I know some of my work has that effect on people.
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haakon95 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
nono its fine, just promise me u will keep on! ^^
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:) I will. Well...I will try my best ^.^
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tairfeu Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
that does work..I m cying
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Awww I'm sorry :( I didn't mean to!
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tairfeu Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
don't be sorry, I know..it's just a powerful description. there is this a "déjà vu" feeling who doesn't help me holding tears. doesn't matter your writing is very good that's all
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