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It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

I could be so more much than this
I do have a purpose, yet I still resist
I yearn to have it all but I don't even wish to exist


So let the day of the rapture come
But leave me be, the lone soul who is numb

I contain my own apocalypse in my palms
But I will never release it, I will do no one any harm
For I deserve to let it riot inside, even though I've done nothing wrong

My veins send out bolts of corruption
I had no choice but to let it finally happen

My undying resilience is a gift, but it turned out to be so cruel
Because I've faced everything ever known, I'm a walking, breathing shield
Near invincible, I no longer feel any of the hits, so I long since yearn to be killed

I stare up at the cross above me
Wishing I knew what it was like to rest in peace

I could not bear to live this life
I knew I failed at everything before I even tried
I couldn't take it anymore, so I decided to bury myself alive- on the inside
I chose to kill myself on the inside.
I needed to blind myself from this life.
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KalineReine Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
One of the best poems I've ever read in my life. I'm not joking. This is amazing!
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It means a lot whens a person says something like that, so thank you a ton.
KalineReine Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome but I was just being honest. :huggle:
MissEllaAllanPoe Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
If these words are true to how you feel, I'm sorry and hope that you find consolation from somewhere. It is deeply poetic though.
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It's altered slightly different from how I feel. I refrain from using "him, her, he, she, his, hers" and such, just so anyone could relate to every piece without gender restricted concepts.

But thank you for your kind words. :)
MissEllaAllanPoe Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I like your reader consideration, no constraints, etc.
BOI-BLUE Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2012  Student General Artist
"You didn't even want to live your life
You knew you failed at everything before you even tried
You couldn't take it anymore so you chose to bury yourself on the inside"

I know this all too well my friend, if you need anyone I can listen.....
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It's kind of...difficult to talk about anything. I keep the lid tightly close, because once it's loosened, it's very unbearable.
BOI-BLUE Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2012  Student General Artist
I understand...
Hope all is well in your world....
SierraPsyche Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is very beautiful.
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