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My Selfish Rebellion

My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds

We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you

Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven

I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen

So try to tear me down
I dare you to smite me now

I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found

I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this false grace to be devoured

Let me fall for my desires
While I set my own wings on fire

This bestowed belief is so, so controlling, I've seen it with my own eyes
Following some footprints while not making your own, staying within the lines
This is why I need to go my own way, and you all will see the footprints are mine

I've only ever seen the light, but it has now become so, so preposterous
For I can no longer stay inside of this dull sight, it has finally become too lifeless
I want you to witness me descend into darkness while I grasp onto a long awaited selfishness
I rip my halo
I burn my wings
I take my kingdom

It's Heaven's Failure
It's a new beginning
It's my granted freedom
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This poem is written for my project, which is titled "Broken Wings Unbound: I"m Falling Down, I'm Soaring Now"

In volume six: My Maelstrom

My Selfish Rebellion -
My Unjustified Sickness -
My Unjustified SicknessMy Unjustified Sickness

My dilated pupils thicken with gray tears that render me blind
This spreading infection called human pain crusts over my tired eyes
Trapping in the unreleased torment as I now start to drown from the inside

My overly pale-shaded skin starts to stingingly peel away
Revealing the agony that I have to endure every single night and day
And it starts to make you wonder how much more of this torture can I take?

As it sinks itself deeper into my already broken flesh, I'm consumed entirely
It's tainting me whole, I'm a corrupted travesty, cringing as I decay so flawlessly
So please, I beg you to bestow me your numbing

My Broken Promises -
My Broken Promises
My Broken Promises

I know  \ you don't need to remind me anymore
I heard  / those heartfelt words many times before

You remember I said I would always be there for you when you needed me
But instead, I just upped and left the both of us, so heartlessly
Knowing very well that you're the most important person, I'm so sorry
Maybe these words of my inner hurt will help you understand clearly

I always thought that my first kiss ever would be with a special someone
But it was taken away from me in a split second, the loss cannot be undone
And I planned to keep my virginity for a little while longer, I wasn't ready yet

My Invisible Life - Not Yet Written
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SaveAceOfSpades Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I love it! Very interesting thoughts from the angel. Why do we need our crowns? :)
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I just love the whole Angel and Demon concept. Ever since I got into supernatural, those types of characters influenced me in ways.
The whole crown thing is kind of weird I guess. It's like, the angel wants to get rid of the halo and replace it with a crown, which would symbolize that he/she is in charge or their own 'self' now. Or in simple terms- the 'king' of their 'self' ....if that makes any sense. Control of ones self.

But yeah.

SaveAceOfSpades Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Much like you, I was very into the whole angel/demon thing since I learned about them as a little girl. At that point, they were good and evil respectively; but the lines always blur as you get older.

Aha! I get it! So interesting, and an awesome idea. I love hearing what the author thought whenever they wrote, so thank you for your take on it.
donttuchme Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2012  Student Digital Artist
very cool
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks ^.^ I tried.
donttuchme Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I love a lot of ur work all of it and hope to see some more
COLOREDINLOVE Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wonderful and write so well and your unique style of capturing the reader's attention and taking us on the journey with you..Awesome!!!
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you ^.^ Comments like these keep me doing what I'm doing. So it does mean a lot when a person says that. <3 <3
COLOREDINLOVE Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are very welcome and looking forward to more moving pieces!
Shyanne-Kai Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2012
Wow, this is fantastic. Good wording choices, and I like how you have set this out.
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