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January 9, 2013
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My Invisible Life

Chest piercing
Pulse bounding
Barely breathing

I'm praying
On the surface of anxiety

I'm weeping
Getting used to this melancholy

They said...
They said...
They said...

They'd always be here to help

But instead...
But instead...
But instead...

I've always only had myself

I regret...
I regret...
I regret...

Opening the gates to this hell

It spreads...
It spreads...
It spreads...

And the screams are revealed

Tears shed...
Tears shed...
Tears shed...

I let my sorrow and resolve meld
Sight fading
Body numbing
Emotions withering

My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right

But my lies weren't convincing
So this will always be my invisible life
Even though you see me the way I am
You will never see whats inside of my broken mind
Stock image - by :icondaestock:
This poem is written for those who suffer behind closed doors.
They hide away from everyone, in fear that they'd push them away further.
Featured in my upcoming poetry book, titled- "Broken Wings Unbound: I'm Falling Down / I'm Soaring Now"
In volume six: My Maelstrom

My Invisible Life -
My Broken Promises -
My Broken Promises
My Broken Promises

I know  \ you don't need to remind me anymore
I heard  / those heartfelt words many times before

You remember I said I would always be there for you when you needed me
But instead, I just upped and left the both of us, so heartlessly
Knowing very well that you're the most important person, I'm so sorry
Maybe these words of my inner hurt will help you understand clearly

I always thought that my first kiss ever would be with a special someone
But it was taken away from me in a split second, the loss cannot be undone
And I planned to keep my virginity for a little while longer, I wasn't ready yet

My Selfish Rebellion -
My Selfish Rebellion
My Selfish Rebellion

My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds

We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you
Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven

I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen

So try to tear down
I dare you to smite me now

I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found

I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this fals

My Unjustified Sickness -
My Unjustified SicknessMy Unjustified Sickness

My dilated pupils thicken with gray tears that render me blind
This spreading infection called human pain crusts over my tired eyes
Trapping in the unreleased torment as I now start to drown from the inside

My overly pale-shaded skin starts to stingingly peel away
Revealing the agony that I have to endure every single night and day
And it starts to make you wonder how much more of this torture can I take?

As it sinks itself deeper into my already broken flesh, I'm consumed entirely
It's tainting me whole, I'm a corrupted travesty, cringing as I decay so flawlessly
So please, I beg you to bestow me your numbing

This completes volume six.
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lightjer7 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
Love this piece so much :'(
been feeling like this all these years
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Awwww :'(
I really do hope in this new your, everything will start looking up for you, I really do. <3
starnoyume Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
wow this is amazing powerful, the rhythm is so attractive that the lines are spinning in my mind now...
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. I was kind of nervous about the rhythm with this one. Just because it was produced so quickly. But thank you for reassuring me with this wonderful comment! It means a lot! :D
waiting-for-wings Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
wow this is really well written
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much! :D It means a lot, thank you for your kind words.
waiting-for-wings Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's my pleasure
SMonaghan119 Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013
very well written I enjoyed this, emotional and dark
SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. It means a lot.
I'm happy that you enjoyed this one. ^_^
Ghostpaint1 Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2013
Very good rhythm! And you can really get the strength behind the words. I have no problem believing you were able to overcome whatever hardships came your way :)
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